Most people who know us do not mark today as a 'special day'. It's not our anniversary, either of our birthdays, wasn't the day we brought Jacob home into our family, in fact, Nate probably doesn't even remember why this date is significant...this date marks the date 3 years ago that we were told some very desperate words, that we would not be able to conceive children. We sat in shock in the dr. office, trying to hold our composure just enough to make it home. I remember sobbing with each other on our bed wondering what God's plan for us was. We were devastated. Eventually work was calling, tear stained faces left each other because I had to go back to teach (I left one assignment a little early to make it to this appointment and would be back to my next appointment after lunch.) Quite honestly we were blind sided by this news. We had absolutely no clue this was the news we were going to hear. It was only through God's strength that I was able to go back to school and teach that afternoon.
We had already made plans to be away from each other that night - Lifelight was underway and a dear friend of mine and a couple young gals would be heading with us up to Sioux Falls, I couldn't cancel, plus Nate had to work. It was an extremely difficult 24-36 hour time span. Nate arrived as soon as he could and we carefully listened to what God was saying to us.
Fast forward about 2 months - there had been a small glimmer of home - we decided to have a procedure done to see if that would allow us to have children, the procedure did not accomplish what we had hoped...another devastating dr. appointment. It was some time in November that we had heard that news and proceeded to follow God's calling in our marriage and family...we both felt like adoption is where he was leading us. We did some research, made some phone calls and within a month and half we were taking the step of faith and starting the adoption process.
And, if you have been following our blog, the beginning of our blog starts and you know the rest!
Jacob turns two tomorrow! Amazing! Crazy! Beautiful! We have the most amazing little boy and are in complete awe of who he is, what he does, what he knows. This boy is perfect in our family.
So despite the hurts of what today stands for, there is a precious little boy who fell asleep in daddys arms this afternoon and it's so adorable; the childbearing pain, swollen body, the hospital wrist bands, cutting an umblical cord...ya know...the list goes on...we have stretchmarks in many other ways and we still have times where we long to be able to conceive and it hurts. But we go on trusting.
We look forward to celebrating Jacob's official birthday tomorrow and praying God gives him many, many more birthdays to celebrate!